Drowning

Something is inside my mind, and it has made me emotionally weary.
Something i've been doubting since certain day.
Something which reason i've been wistfully searching. Why does it exist?
Hence, i tried to dive into it. My own mind.
It was deeper than i thought.
Consciously immersed myself into it, wishfully able to obtain an explanation of what's happening.
Everything is scattered, that it was frightening to open my eyes.
I realized that in the end, I was paralyzed by fear.
Losing my ability to swim and deeply drowned inside it.